Monday, February 16, 2015

Idle wandering minds

My mind went back to my ex today.

I have no idea where she is, how she is - I'm fairly sure she's still alive, or I'd have heard from one of my friends out her way. But I can't help but wonder how things would have turned out if I'd had my last job - over at plumchoice, working from home - while we'd been married.

I can't help but wonder if we'd still *be* married. If I'd still had a partner... though I have no idea what she'd be like now. I don't know if she's in a home or able to take care of herself. That... I don't know that that would have mattered, in the long run, if I'd be able to take care of her or not.

If keeping her away from the influence of her *mother* would have helped her.

I don't know how or where you are right now, Leah... but I do miss you at times, even now.