How to make a customer annoyed.

1. Hype a game (Hellgate: London.)
2. "Suddenly" require a subscription before release.
3. Be vague about what's needed (do you REALLY need to subscribe? Oh, only for new content. Can you see it single player? I still don't know.)
4. Be buggy and slow.
5. Make sure selecting a nice, clear "System Requirements" option does not bring up, oh, system requirements. In any way shape or form.

Hellgate sucks. And I was so looking forward to it, oh, a year ago or so.

How long?

How long does it take to no longer be angry at an ex?

All I know is, I need to find someone. Not having someone means I end up with time to think. Which sometimes leads back to her. Heck, I'm realizing I don't recall seeing anything of the first miscarriage in insurance or hospital bills... convenient that it was while she was away from me.

Yeah. I need to get my butt out there and hook up with someone, I think. This isn't healthy.

Yay!

So, two things I've been waiting for arrived today.

See, I've been planning on getting back into model building - it's one of those "essential parts of me" I've neglected since divorce, just from feeling so lost and "not-me" since.

Well, I couldn't pass these up, and as I got that *urge* to build again - I've been getting a few kits together and supplies. I lost thousands thanks to the bitchy, forced nature of the move I had to do - and not just little things like the kits and such, but irreplacable things, like my high school yearbooks. Something I can't forgive being forced into the position I lost hem from.

Anyway... my "stuff."

First, I used to have an airbrush, an Aztek 470. It's a nice brush, with a unique system of tips instead of full needles, and a resin (of some sort) body that can't be disassembled. I lost that during the move. I finally turned round, hearing Badger had a "yard sale," and bought a Thayer-Chandler Omni 4000.


I still may buy another Aztek, but... this is a gorgeous brush, with comfortable heft for it. Normally runs something like $130. I got it for $40 or so. Then another 10 for an air hose with water trap built in. NO air cans for me any more (something that always irked me.)

The other thing?

A Dragon HE-162D kit.

I love this airplane. It, the P-36, and the F-5/T-38/F-20 series are my all time favourites. They just look *right.* The D's a forward-swept wing variant... yes, on an early (WWII German) jet.

... I can't wait to get building.

Edit: 6000. Not 4000. Still an awesome little brush.

Anniversaries

Two days ago was my ex's birthday. Emailed her a week before - as I don't really trust myself to talk to her, or, honestly, just trust her. Haven't heard a thing.

Somehow, this doesn't really bother me, given my thoughts, when turned to her, are either those of feeling used or downright angry.

And in less than a month - March 6, to be honest - is the second anniversary of my emancipation.

Heck of a thing to call a divorce, hmm? Yes, I celebrate the day we signed the papers, even though life went to hell shortly after, and I found myself driving cross country to the barely-open arms of my brother - not, in hindsight, that I could blame them. I had, for her, burned bridges... two weeks after that, I left, to live with a friend for a few months, then move back in with my mom to help get me on my feet.

I'm getting there. I still feel adrift, somewhat - I can't say I'm of my job, but it's a job, and if I don't think of where I could have been, it's... tolerable. Still not where I want to be, but it's there, and letting me collect bits of myself back.

Meanwhile... I turn to ME. I'm still rediscovering who I am - quiet and somewhat of a loner that I am, never satisfied and always curious. Soon, I'll have to find a focus for that building energy.

Almost done

Oy. 2008 that close already?

No, this isn't going to be a reflection, and I truly don't care for making new years resolutions. (I like my 1680x1050, thanks.) Still, as years go, this was - relatively quiet. I still feel like I'm spinning my wheels, and have pretty much given up on the thought of having a family, but this isn't exactly a shock.

I haven't spoken to my ex in months, and she hasn't called. Emailed her a "Have a nice holidy" type email, but that's about it. Given the roller coaster I've been on about her, I can only say it's a good thing. Someday, maybe, we'll end up talking again, but for now? Letting things settle is good.

Besides, i'm getting a bit of myself back. For some time I didn't particularly care for much of anything I used to do. Now... i want to get back into music. And model building. My love of aircraft has started to make itself known again. I've even started buying a few kits. Maybe I'll even get them built.

Ah well. One step at a time. I'm making progress, and y'know, I'm glad. At least I'm moving ahead.