It's been a while.

So. What happened?

With everything else, I'd forgotten about this blog - and that post before this, well... 

I lost the apartment. (Still paying that off, a bit at a time.)
I did get a good job, yes. Still tech support, still healthcare. And now making more than I have ever made, which ... is surprisingly relaxing. No, I'm not rich, won't be buying a house any time soon - I'll probably be renting this room in someone's home for a while, honestly. But I'm able to catch up and things like replacing tires and brakes on the car are not economic disasters for me.

Leah died May 10, 2018. I found out later that year. I ... do still mourn for her. Even with all the crap. I keep wondering if I should have tried calling one more time. I think next year I'll find where her grave is, if she has one, and go visit it. Explain a few things. Apologize. I still haven't looked for anyone else - I don't want to say "to replace her," but - to follow on. I just can't. Not that I feel like I'd be betraying her - we were divorced for a decade and change, after all, and she is dead. I just don't know if I want to start again with anyone. I have no real urge to, and I don't think I bring much to the table.

AH well.

Still. I'm alive. I'm spending too much on books. (Damn you half price books clearance sale!) I'm making it.